Beloved Brother

By Peter and Myla


The hardest thing I've ever had to do is say goodbye to my brother. He tragically took his own life a few months ago. Ever since this event I have not been myself, and I don't think I will be again, but I'm finally reaching a point of acceptance in this loss. I think the hardest part for me is dealing with the "what if..." I really miss him and think about him every day. I pray that he knows this, and how much I love him. I regret not expressing my love to him. ALWAYS LET THOSE YOU LOVE KNOW IT. He had a heart of gold, and a fun personality. I know that I can only hope to be as loving of a person as he was. I've heard it said before that, "only the good die young," In the case of my brother I believe it to be true. No one will ever know why he did this for sure, but I believe that kind hearted people struggle with living in a cruel, unfair, world. This holiday season has been difficult, but I find comfort in the Christmas season as we celebrate the birth of Christ. I know that because of his atonement I can someday see my brother again. I LOVE YOU CHESTER, AND I'LL SEE YOU ON THE OTHER SIDE!!!
 

3 comments so far.

  1. rxmilner 9:17 PM
    Sorry to hear that. Hope your christmas season can still provide some solace.
  2. Jenn 9:53 AM
    Myla, I'm so sorry for your loss. It is so hard when our loved ones make choices that hurt. It is hard to say goodbye and move forward and you're so right that you won't be the same. It is something that can make you stronger though. I have decided that the way we miss loved ones when they leave this world and the desire we have to be with them again is the desire we should feel to be with our Heavenly Father and the Savior. It is a hard lesson to learn, but if we didn't love them so much it wouldn't hurt. It's okay to be sad, it's okay to miss them, but it's also okay to be happy, I think they would want that. You've had a rough little run my friend and I hope you know you're in our prayers. Find comfort in the Atonement and know that your faith can carry you through the hardest times of your life and when yours isn't enough the faith of your loved ones will lift you and carry you. We love you and this first year is the hardest. I still get really sad and teary at Kent's birthday and around the time he died even after almost 3 years. We miss him and love him and pray for him still. It will get better. We love you. Hope you can enjoy the holidays with the most precious gifts you have, they will give you more comfort than anything. It will get better, I promise.
    Love,
    Jenn
  3. Jordan Mamma!! 7:26 PM
    Oh Myla, I am sorry for the loss of your brother and the ache that you feel inside! It will get better with time! You are such a beautiful woman with a very sweet and tender spirit!!Thank you so much for sharing your very personal experience and feelings!!

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